This isn't about you.

[blustocking]

Silly girl, you are not so special. There are dozens like you, dime a dozen, frozen for use later. You think painting your nails will help you? You think the blood-red on your fingertips will make you feel better. It's not real. He can't hurt you if it's not real. What is the point, little girl, tell me this...when you sleep at night, why do you sleep to the side? Who are you waiting for? Are you good enough for him/her when he/she arrives? No, mon chaton, you're not. You're not. Carry on...