I should be asleep...

But more importantly, I should have started my homework by now. 2nd week of school and already slacking off. Wha-chow.

I found this the other day...

"It doesn't help that she was a magician by trade and even, by heart. She knew secrets, as magicians do, but what she held in those eyes was much more than how to pull a rabbit out of a hat. She knew how to pull your heart from your chest, your soul from your very being. She was the kind of girl who stole your dreams, your life...rearranged it, fucked with it, and gave it back to you tied up in pretty red ribbons. And you let her. You let her and you secretly enjoyed it."

I had ideas once. I had ambition.
I've lost so much and done so little.
Time to get it all back.

I just rested my head, gently, on BooCat's back as he was laying down...listened to his wittle heart. Animals amaze me sometimes, just by breathing.

I wasn't going to update...

You all know what I'm going to talk about, what I can't put into words...

I can't stop crying.

All of those people...paper from desks floating to the ground....people jumping from the top of the World Trade to escape the second plane...our own commercial planes, with our own people, used against us....oh god....so many people....

My family wants me to move home.

I went to school this morning, even though I didn't want to leave the house. But I figured if they hit anything, it will be LAX or downtown and I'm not close to either when I'm at school. For once, I'm glad L.A. is so spread out.
People are so fucking stupid. They take it so lightly...so detached. Their teeny little minds and hearts can't comprehend the massive amount of people who just died. Buildings, which stood as financial monoliths, symbols of machismo, gods, and landmarks are now either obliterated or damaged beyond a couple weeks repair taking so many lives with them. And the President, the President whisking his way, secretly, all over the central U.S. so as to save his own ignorant ass.

Today, I am an American...but more importantly, I am human...and this hurts.

I've never given blood before. But I think I will today.