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"Possession"

Listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide,
Voices trapped in yearning,
memories trapped in time,
The night is my companion
and solitude my guide,
Would I spend forever here
and not be satisfied?

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
to find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhyme
My body aches to breathe your breath,
you words keep me alive,

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

Into this night I wander,
it's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread,
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

--Sarah McLachlan

yay! disappointment!

I consistently let myself down.

I want to kick each and every one of my icons...perhaps I'll bring back the x through the face one. I liked that one.

Too many questions, not enough answers. Never enough time. Never enough time.

you always want what you cannot have...

I want to be non-existent in New York. I want to seclude myself in a city of thousands. A city unlike any other, a city opposite this one. I want to be alone(not entirely) with my cat, my books, my art supplies, and a typewriter...no computer...possibly a television stored away to watch The Simpsons when it catches my fancy. I want a complete change, flip it over, hit re-start.

I'm tired of my job(s). I'm tired of my stress, my surroundings, the person I live with. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of everything I have to do, everything I want to do and never have time. I'm tired of me, my moods, my fucking insecurities. I'm tired of failing, falling, flailing.

...and then you get it and you don't want it anymore.
But I do.
And I can't.
And I won't.

So let it go.


***

bish

After a thoughtful morning/afternoon...this is what my mind is capable of:

*sitting in somewhat yogic position while feeling up right foot*

"DAMN my feet are tiny!"

Yeah, there you go. I've used my brain too much today. Quota filled, caffeine in system, now it's stupid time.

*pulls shirt up over her head a la Bevis and runs around with her Corn Mug*
WEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! muthafucka.

updatin' fool, fuckin' deal

I'm going through my music files on my work computer and I found some perfect-for-today songs. Download all of them, schweetmeats (though, if you don't have the Cure, you're not my friend anyway. ;)

Craig Armstrong: "Wake Up In New York"
Nina Nastasia: "This Is What It Is"
Wayne: "Whisper"
Radio 4: "Save Your City"
Wilco: "I Am Trying To Break Your Heart"
The Promise Ring: "Stop Playing Guitar"
Momus: "The Sadness of Things"
the Cure: "Just Like Heaven"
the Pixies: "Where Is My Mind"
Diana Krall: "Why Should I Care" (god I love her)
Hans Zimmer: "You're So Cool"
Gavin Friday: "Shag Tobacco"
Big Country: "In A Big Country"
Ours: (christ, ANY Ours is good) "Sometimes", "Medication", "Miseryhead", "I'm A Monster"
Alice In Chains: "Don't Follow"
Wild Strawberries: "Mirror Mirror" "Pretty Lips (Boomtang Boys Extended Remix)" "Let U Go (ATB Remix)" & "I Know You're Gonna Break My Heart"
Gin Blossoms: "Hey Jealousy"
the Autumns: "June In Her Frost and Fur"
Nick Cave (and the Bad Seeds): "Red Right Hand" (and of course "Where The Wild Roses Grow" (w/ that big-mouthed Aussie), natch)
the Stone Roses: "I Wanna Be Adored"
Coldplay: "Such A Rush"
Travis: "Hit Me Baby(One More Time)" yes, it's what you think it is.
Cowboy Junkies: "Sweet Jane"
Joy Division: "Love Will Tear Us Apart"
the Cure: "Maybe Someday"
Echo & The Bunnymen: "The Killing Moon"
Mazzy Star: "Fade Into You"
Morrissey: "Jack the Ripper"
Tears For Fears: "Mad World"
Jimmy Eat World: "Lucky Denver Mint"
The Innocence Mission: "Brave", "Bright As Yellow", "Frozen Charlotte (w/ Natalie Merchant)"
Natalie Merchant: "My Skin"
Tori Amos: "1,000 Oceans"
Freedy Johnston: "Bad Reputation"
BT: "Shame" (any BT really)
Poe: "Haunted" (any Poe really, any)
Sarah McLachlan: "I Love You (BT Remix)"

And this one is for a certain someone ;)

Reverend Horton Heat "Interracial Cowboy Homo Kind of Love"

*sigh* I love the good Reverend.

Odd mix, I know...I was just going through and listening to the songs I felt like hearing right now...not all-inclusive.