tick tock

I'm old. Except that I'm not, and I just feel old. I feel tired and worn out and slightly depressed and cranky and over-it. I want to be done with school so bad, only magnified by the fact that I'm behind now. 2 screenprints to turn in, don't give a shit anymore. Show in less than a week, give a shit, but still can't find the time (and dime) to do it how I'd like. Eh. In the end, as long as I maintain my B in Political Posters, who gives a rat's ass.

And then there's that, the cursing is becoming more intense, my ability to verbalize lessening. Have you seen that Simpson's episode where Lisa thinks she's going dumb because of Homer's genes? I feel like that. Not because of my genes, but...well, maybe. My Mother, though I love her, is an angry person sometimes, unable to express herself without it. I don't want that to be me. I simply feel a dumbening.

And sleep. Sleeping a lot. I used to go to bed late because I knew I wouldn't wake up early and work, but now I can't seem to stay up late (later than 1:30...3 used to be about right). So I can't stay up late, can't get up early. Can't get everything done.
Maybe I have mono.
If only.

I want a normal life right now. It's swinging back that way and I'm not sure if this is the 5-year shift or something hormonal, or worse, biological.