I would go one further tho, I need to be needed. I feel worthless and unwanted if I am not needed. But only ever romantically. Socially I dislike friends "needing" me, and shy away from "needy" people. Professionally, I KNOW they need me, I have a huge ego when it comes to my abilities to perform professionally. And a bad bad habit of pushing the limits, and saying things like "What are they going to do? Fire me?"
I am a Leo/Virgo after all. You can see the split personalities fight each other sometimes. It's fun to live in my head.
Need to be needed. Yes, life is easier that way. It is so much EASIER to BE something that someone else NEEDS than to just BE you! It is so much easier to live your life for someone else than for yourself.
Things and stuff. Thoughts and emotions.
At times in my life I existed soley for the benefit of other people. At other times I avoid the all-consumming need of others for fear I would drown under the weight of their need.
I walk a tight rope in life, trying to balance my need to be needed, and my need to be myself.
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momijizukamori
Do I like to be needed?
Date: 2002-11-13 09:50 am (UTC)That speaks to the co-dependent in me so MUCH!
I would go one further tho, I need to be needed.
I feel worthless and unwanted if I am not needed.
But only ever romantically.
Socially I dislike friends "needing" me, and shy away from "needy" people.
Professionally, I KNOW they need me, I have a huge ego when it comes to my abilities to perform professionally.
And a bad bad habit of pushing the limits, and saying things like "What are they going to do? Fire me?"
I am a Leo/Virgo after all.
You can see the split personalities fight each other sometimes.
It's fun to live in my head.
Need to be needed.
Yes, life is easier that way.
It is so much EASIER to BE something that someone else NEEDS than to just BE you!
It is so much easier to live your life for someone else than for yourself.
Things and stuff.
Thoughts and emotions.
At times in my life I existed soley for the benefit of other people.
At other times I avoid the all-consumming need of others for fear I would drown under the weight of their need.
I walk a tight rope in life, trying to balance my need to be needed, and my need to be myself.
Sometimes I fail.
But I always try.
And I'll always need to be needed.
:)