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[blustocking]

NO ONE is ever truly honest.

I'm sick of this.
I want to fucking hash it all out. Fucking social politics. Fucking sides.
Bullshit.

C'mon. Out with it.
Be honest, to yourself for once.

Oh yes, I am guilty. I am guilty right now. I'm being vague so none of you REALLY know who I am talking about. Maybe it's not just one person even. Right now, you're probably thinking it's you...if you're what...about 5 different people that it really could be. If you're not, be fucking thankful.

I just wanted to be a good friend. I just wanted good friends. I have been deceived.
Do not speak to me of "love". You have no idea.

You could be such a good person...you just choose not to.

Oh Livejournal, you're getting a workout today.

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[photicdriver.livejournal.com]

instead of wowing you with how honest i can be, i will tell you a story about how dishonest i will be soon.

you know the classmates.com thing? well, about 6 months ago i was listening to "the hook" by stephen malkmus, and thinking about paying money to have all those lame assholes see how i am today. and i thought, fuck it, my real life is very boring, so i will make something up. but i will do it slowly. since i too am obsessed with pirates (what is it about them?), i decided i woud start off with a post about how i am doing, but mention that i lost one of my legs in a car crash. i'm fine with my new wooden prostetic!, and all that. then, i would start sailing as a hobby, but lose an eye in a sailing accident, and have to wear a patch. that's ok, because i started raising birds, and they make me so happy. then i would lose my hand in another accident(again, i would have a nifty prostetic), but would get really into sailing, and move to the carribean. i would do this over a year or so, and no one would get it until the end, when i would just post: "rrrrrrr".
my friend sarah wanted to be a newest pop sensation in namibia, and have songs like " nghoc (tongue click) fnahf, click, click,,,"

sometimes, fuck honesty. did you listen to NPR today? they had a story about how people a lot more than they think, all the time. at least it's confirmed.
i love you, blu. keep posting because you have a lot to say.

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[blustocking.livejournal.com]

See, that kind of fibbing is okay because no one gets hurt and besides that...it's fucking funny. :)

I know. No one CAN be truly honest is more what I should have said. I am absolutely no exception. Tout yourself as an honest person, but you have a carefully thought out face-to-show-the-world...that's me...and a few others.

Some people just need to start being more honest with themselves and start being fucking considerate.

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[photicdriver.livejournal.com]

i get hurt when that happens too. but don't stop trusting people, and don't become an evil bitter lady because of it. you are pure and you need to stay that way.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

p.s. I love you too girl. Thank you both for that lovely, lovely e-card...I am so touched that you thought of me...I really, really am. Did you guys get my card?

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[photicdriver.livejournal.com]

thank you. we did get that card, and it was very thoughtful of you. justin and i were quite touched. it is still standing on our front table.

good luck with the teeth. just remember to eat soft food, and comfort yourself. and relax! i regret working at 5 the next morning after i got mine out because i forgot to ask for it off.
if you need anything, call me.