Oh...crap....should I be worried. I do that nearly all the time, especially in cars. What control, complete release of control, and freedom, for however brief, to not "stay within the lines". This is why it is not good for me to drive near large cliffs or bodies of water. There are other reasons for the water-thing, but yes...as I have recently proven, I crave a loss of control.
"What if I just kept going, straight line, right into that guardrail/underpass/building? I could do it. Everyone trusts me not to do it. But I could. And then what would happen." At which point, the various scenerios speed through your head, all broken and bloody.
The simple fact that I could take someone with me, that it would devastate my family, that most of the time, I don't REALLY want to do it, keeps me alive.
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Date: 2002-07-28 10:12 pm (UTC)"What if I just kept going, straight line, right into that guardrail/underpass/building? I could do it. Everyone trusts me not to do it. But I could. And then what would happen." At which point, the various scenerios speed through your head, all broken and bloody.
The simple fact that I could take someone with me, that it would devastate my family, that most of the time, I don't REALLY want to do it, keeps me alive.