Shoooooweeeee, it do stink.

So I'm sitting here at work, only not at work. We're in the other office across the street because they're re-roofing the main office. It STINKS! It's permeating THIS office now. Smell of tar is everywhere! Help.

We looked at apartments yesterday. We found one that I would LOVE to take, but it has about 3 or 4 things going against it. It's east of the 101, not a bad area, but not a great area.
It doesn't have parking or air and it only has one bathroom. But, it's $1,100 a month, all utilites paid, it's just been remodeled, and they take pets. It's so cute. It's a townhouse style with the bedrooms and the bathroom upstairs. The living room is huge and the kitchen and little dining area are very cute with their little black and white tiles. It makes me sad that we probably won't be able to take this one. It's very conducive to containing the noise.

We looked at a couple in the valley as well and we're looking at more tomorrow. Oy. Now that this HAS to happen, I'm trying to make the best of it and am becoming a little excited about a change of surroundings. I still hate moving though.

And school starts in two days.
And I'm jumping out of a plane in a couple weeks.
And I hate packing...but I hate living out of boxes and unpacking more.
So unsettled.
So scattered.

Keep It In Your Head.

I drove, fast.
From the 101 to the 10, past the 405 to PCH
Followed it all along the coast.
No direction, just drive.
Drive and keep driving.

There was something I was going to tell you, but I forgot.

I know there's water there, to my left, just below those cliffs.
I know it, but I can't see it.
I can smell it, hear it, touch it, taste it, but I can't see it.
I can see a light up ahead, dimly sweeping the sky for cobwebs.
A lighthouse? I'll drive to it and see. Then, that's when I'll turn back.
Drive. Cars get fewer. Trees turn from green to black. Stars shine brighter. Wind gets colder.

Wait.
It's dark. I can't see the road. I can't see it's safe yellow lines.
Wait, stop. Where are you taking me?
I see you now. I see you below, coming towards me...as fast as I was driving. I see you crash against the shore. In the silence, I see your white-tipped black hands reaching for me.
Air escapes, water moves in and...

I just remembered what I wanted to tell you...