amazing...not hardly

I grew tired of work.
So I stopped going.
I grew tired of responsibility.
So I stopped following through.
I grew tired of caring.
So I stopped.
I grew tired of thinking...
So I stopped.
I grew tired of feeling.
So. I. Stopped.
I grew tired of breathing.
...so...I......stopped.

I grew tired of living.
So I stopped.

I began to see finality in every obstacle.
Could that barrier kill me?
Would the strength of that concrete bridge be enough to take my life?
Would it be tragic like I hoped? Or merely sad...move on.
Would I be a beautiful mangled mess?
Every overpass, every ditch, every car, every cliff...
Could they save me from myself?
If I accelerated, could I lose control?
Mommy, it wasn't my fault.
It was the car, it was the cliff, it was the burden, it was the rift...
but it wasn't you.
No, it wasn't you.

Never backward, always forward, looking back.
It's not you, it's me.
Sorry, sorry Simple Simon says.
Who am I kidding?

Ring around the rosy...pockets full of posies...
ashes
ashes
we all fall
down...
Someday.

You're going to lose..

(no subject)

"I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks it's fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down"

(no subject)

( I annoy myself, enjoy )

If I believed in hell...

I'd surely be going there for being sooooo amused at this.
I was just treated to the beginning of this video...

"The ABC of Sex Education for Trainables" (1975, 20 minutes): This is the flip side of all those sex education films directed at children. This well-meaning short teaches teachers how to handle sex education for "retardates," or the developmentally disabled. Narrator Richard Dix offers the term "trainables," in the hope that these educational methods might work. Why should we teach trainables about sex? Just watch the opening scene, where a Ron Jeremy look-alike lures a retarded girl into his car. Teachers can learn how to list a dozen words for penis without laughing, talk about wet dreams with a "calm and accepting" manner, and explain intercourse. The lessons also cover social skills and avoiding sexual exploitation. Directed toward educators, this short tends to be quite graphic compared to the others on this disc, and it tries very hard to take its subject seriously. Nevertheless, it comes across as very surreal.

Trainables? oh, my

which one

this puppy

this little doggy

thisch one

yet another

Or perhaps I should just wait until this one is back in stock.