gamera is really neat, gamera is filled with meat...

[blustocking]

Actually, I feel fufty-million times better because I said a giant "fuuuuuuck yeeeeew" to the Celtic Arts Center. They're never open, my contact person is a little...off, and after I finished cleaning the seats, they didn't know what they were going to do with me so...bye bye! The only bad thing, is that I lost 6.5 of the 10 hours I have done because I had to hand in my virtually unsigned work record to get another assignment. Not much in the grand scheme of things, but still. But now, now I will be working at Out of The Closet (the thrift store) in NoHo. Sweet-ass. They're open every day but Sunday and I've decided for the last week of September, the month of October, and the first week of November, I'm going to tell Brentano's I can't work Friday and Saturday, thus giving me time to do 16 hours of community service a week. I just might be able to pull this off. And that makes me feel SO much better. I'll still work at Brentano's during the week, closing shifts after I work at DHD. It will sucketh, but what can you do. Nathing, that's what.

Tomorrow is the Department Night Out and we're going here. I wasn't going to be able to go, as I work at Brentano's, but Chun is kind enough to come pick me up. :D I think I'm most excited about the Kahlua flan. Ha, the most alcohol I've had in..what....3 months as of the 12th? I donna lika tha seafood, so it's cow or chicken for me. If you will recall, I don't eat things that look like they looked when they were alive. If steak had hair and eyes, I wouldn't eat it either...but then again, who would?

I've made a decision today. A pretty solid decision, so I don't expect much change.
Here's the plan, Stan:
I'm moving home. I was riding the bus from (fucking) Van Nuys to Culver City today and it moves along ye olde UCLA path. I was looking at the school and thinking...I don't want to go there. Then I laughed in my head as I said it, "HA! I don't want to go to fucking UCLA! What the eff am I doing here?!" I couldn't really answer myself other than I wanted to get the hell out of Kansas at the time and I would miss the friends I've made. But....I need to finish school. I'm going to be 25 in less than a month and I'm STILL in college, barely. This doesn't really bother me that much, but as more time passes, I see the image of my finishing school move further away. That, and I feel stupid. I feel really fucking dumb lately. I'm not challenged and I feel stagnant. The reading more is helping, but I was looking at the pictures of my artwork I took when I was home (because they're too big to transport out there, I left them at home) and though I'm very critical of them, at least I was creating. So yes, the plan....the plan is to finish this DUI shite, probably go home for Christmas (start looking at Lawrence apartment prices then), do another semester at Valley (writing workshop and possibly one other course...probably ancient history because I love it so), then move home next Spring/Summer. I'm not happy about going back to Kansas for the summer (damn humidity) but at least it will be tornado season *evil grin*. Year of residency (blah) then buckle down, finish school, perhaps go back for a refresher at bartending school and make money with that during the evenings.. I need to focus. Too many distractions. I've said it before, but I really need to get out of debt and focus on what is good for me. It was stupid of me to put personal ads online. Too many responses and I don't have the time. Thank jeebus someone has lured me away from that. I found a much more worthy, helpful distraction. ;) Moving home would also mean two hours closer. heheh.

So, I'm truly sorry to all of my L.A. friends. Feel free to come with me...Lawrence really is a cool town, and think of it, actual seasons! Now I need to work on getting over my "demotion". Whatever, I'm cooler than those schmucks because I did get out. I did experience life outside of the small town bullshit. And when my niece graduates, maybe I'll take her to NYC and I'll(we'll) just stay (heh, I got her wanting to move there as well). I just need to be home for a while...for me, for my family. I finally feel like it's the best decision. It may alter a bit...but I think this one is sticking.

There is now $120 in my savings account (I have no idea how much is in the 401k...a couple thousand?). There has NEVER been more than $80 in my savings because I've always had to take it out to pay bills. Of course, I still owe the court near $400 and the Safety Education Center (purveyors of such fine evenings such as group and my video education classes (Last night we watched The Days of Wine And Roses)) still gets another $125 out of me, but I might be okay *knock on wood*. Now I just need to start saving for the move, pay off more bills. Maybe I won't quit Brentano's at Christmas. Heh, maybe I will and just get another part-time job. They'll probably fire me before then due to my low PR scores as of late. Whatever, that company wasn't always so...well, corporate. I should write up the little review sheet they gave me. You'd all get a good laugh. I'm a damn good worker, excel in every other area, but I refuse to shove that card down customer's throats. They tell us we're not booksellers, we're salespeople, but you know what...fuck that noise.

I've lost more weight, so I think I'll go buy some new pants [said in annoying nasally voice] for my lunch break (as today is free food day here in Pornoland). Boo ya

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But now, now I will be working at Out of The Closet (the thrift store) in NoHo.

>>"Are you open yet?"

"No, ho!"

:)

I think I'm most excited about the Kahlua flan.

>>Oh, that reminds me. I need to see a doctor. "Hmmm...it seems you have Kahlua in your flan."
"Now how did that get there?!"

I feel really fucking dumb lately.

>>One thing you're not is dumb, so *pbbt*.

They'll probably fire me before then due to my low PR scores as of late.

>>What's a PR score?

I've lost more weight, so I think I'll go buy some new pants [said in annoying nasally voice] for my lunch break (as today is free food day here in Pornoland).

>>You're buying pants? Is the world coming to an end?

We should hang out at least once before you go back to the wheat fields. I'm even more annoying in person. Boowahaha!