from surly to giddy in 2 seconds flat

[blustocking]

I just had an amazing conversation with an amazing boy.
And I want to talk to him more and more and more.
T-2.5 days and counting.

I had a dream while sleeping with him the other night. If you pay attention, you'll know I often dream of snakes. It's my fear of deception. Only this time, the dream took place right where I was, sleeping with Ian. There was a large snake in the bed, he didn't notice. It nearly paralyzed me, just looking at it. But I knew I had to get rid of it, so I grabbed it near the head, not knowing what kind of snake it was, and put it outside. Yeah, my dreams can be pretty straightforward.

I got a SECOND speeding ticket! :D AHAHAHAHA! Now that's just comical. Again, 14 miles over the speed limit. Cops in Topeka have NOTHING better to do. There was a time when this would have crippled my day/evening. He's not the only reason I'm okay with it though. Honestly, when shit like that happens...what are you gonna do? Nothing. Suck it up and move on. The me of 2002 would have dwelled. The me of 2002 had reason.

I wrote for a good part of today. I like that I love to write. Writing can be done anywhere and disguised as work VERY easily. Finally, getting paid for my glorious prose. ;p

p.s. WHAT THE BITCH?! LOOK at this lineup! I hate you SoCal people. *shakes fist*

Comments

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

This is a new side to you - one I've never seen before but like and am happy to "meet". I mean, this side of giddy-ness, happiness and no worries from life's little things. I'm so glad for you. And throw those snakes away. Relax and just see what happens, where it goes.

Also, I think we should take a road trip to California for September 20th. It'd just be wrong to miss that. I have no money, but hey, who needs to eat, right?

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
I am battling the occasional bout of fear and insecurity, but I feel more stable and equipped to handle it than I've ever been.

I have no money either! Let's go! :D

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Well, if we drive the whole way, non-stop (just trading off while the other slept), then we could save lots in housing. Plus, once there, we can crash with friends. So, all we need is money for gas and we can live off fiber bars or something cheap. Hmm, I guess we'd also need money to make up for whatever time we miss at work...and money for the tickets...and money for a souvenier....and money for...hmm, yeah, I see this happening.

:)

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I am SO bad when it comes to having fun and saving money. You really CAN'T put a price tag on a good time.

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

too late - all sold out. steve could only get two tickets (he needed at least three), so he's decided to just sell those two and not go. bastard. he should give them to US. :)

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

And fly us out, and put us up in a nice hotel...and...and....YESSSSS.

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

YESSSSSSSSS, that's exactly what he should've done.