found, thanks to the co-worker/friend/poet

[blustocking]

Antilamentation

Regret nothing. Not the cruel novels you read
to the end just to find out who killed the cook.
Not the insipid movies that made you cry in the dark,
in spite of your intelligence, your sophistication.
Not the lover you left quivering in a hotel parking lot,
the one you beat to the punchline, the door, or the one
who left you in your red dress and shoes, the ones
that crimped your toes, don't regret those.
Not the nights you called god names and cursed
your mother, sunk like a dog in the livingroom couch,
chewing your nails and crushed by loneliness.
You were meant to inhale those smoky nights
over a bottle of flat beer, to sweep stuck onion rings
across the dirty restaurant floor, to wear the frayed
coat with its loose buttons, its pockets full of struck matches.
You've walked those streets a thousand times and still
you end up here. Regret none of it, not one
of the wasted days you wanted to know nothing,
when the lights from the carnival rides
were the only stars you believed in, loving them
for their uselessness, not wanting to be saved.
You've traveled this far on the back of every mistake,
ridden in dark-eyed and morose but calm as a house
after the TV set has been pitched out the upstairs
window. Harmless as a broken ax. Emptied
of expectation. Relax. Don't bother remembering
any of it. Let's stop here, under the lit sign
on the corner, and watch all the people walk by.

Dorianne Laux

Also, I bought these and they are awesome.

Comments

[bloodsuckergirl.livejournal.com]

You were in my dreams last nigth with flamey hair and nekkid at a nudist water park (complete with water slides and wave pools) that was in a mall food court. There were lots of other "spooky" pale nekkid people with you too, the lighting was very low almost dark where the water park was, probably to stop the food court customers from being blinded by all the pale flesh.

:)

(I had to come find you because I'd been stranded in ... uh ... "The City" and needed you to help me find... uh... you know, that thing!)

Man, good thing it was dark. ;)

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Did I help?

Re: Man, good thing it was dark. ;)

[bloodsuckergirl.livejournal.com]

Sort of... but you were in a group of gothy friends and I had to keep finding you and following you. :)

[xoruglm.livejournal.com]

Love this ... found it in my livejournal 'memories' ... and I have no memory of how I came across it. Anyway, hello!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Excellent. Glad you liked it! :)