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blustockingIs this evolution? Is this what I have to look forward to, maintaining and upkeep on a body that will give out eventually. Is life a series of doctor's appointments, insurance, and various new products designed to prolong the agony. If so, I'd rather have 50-60 years of carefree fun than 80-90 years of bills, checkups, and 6 pills a day.
But yet my stupid primitive instincts make me strive to prolong life as far as possible, because maybe, maybe someday, it will be worth it. Because I have issues with missing out on something good...I still live in Los Angeles, don't I?
There must be more to it than this. Why build a body with extra parts? Why have "wisdom" teeth when no one needs them? Are they spares? Why have an appendix if it's just going to rupture and kill you? I hope there is a god, and I hope he's laughing his ass off, the cruel bastard.
Not only do I need my wisdom teeth out, but I have 2 new cavities, I grind my teeth, and there's something else which I don't even remember. I'm too pissed off at my body and the way things are to think clearly. (But yet the BEAST brushes her teeth once a fucking day, eats like a pig, and still seems to have okay teeth.) To top it off, Blue Cross is saying I don't have dental and I know I do because we ALL have dental at work. I just don't know where that damn card is. How fucking monotonous and boring.
Is life worth it's own boring stupidity? Are we even really alive? Maybe we all die at 25 or 30 but we don't realize it because we've been so preserved. Oops, my soul has left, but damn if I don't keep on truckin' thanks to MODERN MEDICINE.
I don't want a body anymore. I want to evolve beyond these weak parts and not have to worry about my teeth, or my hair, or my weight, or my heart, or my fucking asthma. It's all so petty, so stupid...there must be more. But I will never see it because that bitch evolution is slow as molasses.
But yet my stupid primitive instincts make me strive to prolong life as far as possible, because maybe, maybe someday, it will be worth it. Because I have issues with missing out on something good...I still live in Los Angeles, don't I?
There must be more to it than this. Why build a body with extra parts? Why have "wisdom" teeth when no one needs them? Are they spares? Why have an appendix if it's just going to rupture and kill you? I hope there is a god, and I hope he's laughing his ass off, the cruel bastard.
Not only do I need my wisdom teeth out, but I have 2 new cavities, I grind my teeth, and there's something else which I don't even remember. I'm too pissed off at my body and the way things are to think clearly. (But yet the BEAST brushes her teeth once a fucking day, eats like a pig, and still seems to have okay teeth.) To top it off, Blue Cross is saying I don't have dental and I know I do because we ALL have dental at work. I just don't know where that damn card is. How fucking monotonous and boring.
Is life worth it's own boring stupidity? Are we even really alive? Maybe we all die at 25 or 30 but we don't realize it because we've been so preserved. Oops, my soul has left, but damn if I don't keep on truckin' thanks to MODERN MEDICINE.
I don't want a body anymore. I want to evolve beyond these weak parts and not have to worry about my teeth, or my hair, or my weight, or my heart, or my fucking asthma. It's all so petty, so stupid...there must be more. But I will never see it because that bitch evolution is slow as molasses.
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god...
Date: 2002-01-30 12:58 pm (UTC)get help for the teeth grinding! i've had problems with that since childhood, and my back teeth...ehhh...at least the bruxism has caused such problems that cosmetic dental procedures will be covered by my insurance(once it kicks in). its not fun. if you've just begun having the problem, the wear shouldn't be too bad.
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Date: 2002-01-31 08:32 pm (UTC)Because it does kick ass.
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Date: 2002-02-01 12:53 am (UTC)