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blustocking) wrote2002-02-12 02:39 pm
blustocking) wrote2002-02-12 02:39 pm
And a Happy Chinese New Year to you too.
Can't breathe.
Things are moving too fast...don't want to be here. I had a nightmare last night about a giant squid/octopus attacking me. It's been a long time since I had a nightmare. Asleep is usually where I'm happiest. It feels like I'm typing really fast but not fast enough. He's not going to fix you(me). No one's going to fix you(me). Me me me memememememememememee. I suck. I can't afford to live, can't afford to die, what to do, what to do. Petty petty petty, everything is petty. Nothing matters but everything. Must calm down, things to do. Work. Don't want to be here. Need to scream, can't. You can take your reality/responsiblity and shove it.
Things are moving too fast...don't want to be here. I had a nightmare last night about a giant squid/octopus attacking me. It's been a long time since I had a nightmare. Asleep is usually where I'm happiest. It feels like I'm typing really fast but not fast enough. He's not going to fix you(me). No one's going to fix you(me). Me me me memememememememememee. I suck. I can't afford to live, can't afford to die, what to do, what to do. Petty petty petty, everything is petty. Nothing matters but everything. Must calm down, things to do. Work. Don't want to be here. Need to scream, can't. You can take your reality/responsiblity and shove it.
*hugs*
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*hug*
Ya, life can be a right dry fuck up the arse.
:)
All that was meant to say, I'm sorry you're having a tough time of it, but some of us are rooting for you. And I would take you out for a drink and some show-shopping, so that you might smile.
Love ya.
What's show-shopping?
Damn w key being riiiiiggght next to the e key. BUGGER!