Welllll, fuckity fuck this.

[blustocking]

Fine.

I'll explain myself. And if anyone gives me ANY fucking shit for "whining" or being "hypocritical", you can go fuck yourself. First of all, what the hell would please you people?! Leaving without ANY fucking notice, or letting you know? Please tell me, as you seem to bitch about either one.

No. It isn't the same. Sorry. Wrong. Chat and the board has become WAY more "cliquey" than it used to be. I know, I was (still am?) in that clique, but there is a line and I will only take so much horseshit being thrown around. I know I wasn't there, but someone was banned for idleing too much?! WTF? Who fucking doesn't idle? That's a convenient excuse for disposing of someone that some of us found "annoying". I almost would second the idea of a private chat because frankly, that's what it is. Why the hell is it even called the Jhonen Board anyway? Do we ever really talk about Jhonen? No, we just lambast the dumb fucks that come in there.

So I'm a hypocrite. Well who the fuck isn't? You'd have to be dead to not be a hypocrite, and even then, I'm not so sure. I honestly believe that things have changed. I think some of you feel that I shouldn't bitch because I am one of the "chosen ones", but it's not fair....and I hate it when it's not fair. So in my deluded little mind, the way we acted before was just and the way some of us are acting now is not. Sue me. I know we're all tired of the random, mentally-challenged fans bursting open the door and yelling, "I LOVE GIR! WEEEEHEEEHEEHOOO!" but fuck, maybe WE should get a grip as well. Frankly, I don't blame people for complaining.

No, we don't have to "all get along". That's impossible. But holy hell, can we just think before we speak. I know the attitude of the Jhonen board/chat is "Hey, we're fucking cool, fit our requirements or fuck off." and that used to be fine with me, but it's getting out of hand. People are just flinging insults and jumping on people's asses for little to no reason. Why? Because they can and hey, it's bunches of fun.

For the person who thinks I hate them, I don't know if we will get to talk. I would, but I don't even know if I want to go to Con now. Call me a whiner, a bitch, a fucking hypocrite, starving for attention, I don't care. This is how I feel, right now...subject to change.

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i agree with a great deal of this

[squeax.livejournal.com]

i've said as much in some of my journal entries from a ways back...

i love you blu, and i love alot of the people, but some of the attitudes are a bit much...which is part of why i had to leave...

my "leave of absence" message was the truth, i need to get alot of shit together, and i can't do that with the stuff that goes on there, or alot of places...
The "Jhonen" board isn't the only forum i've had to leave for this reason....

i just want to hug you.
i love you.
and i hope you DO come to con...i think i'm going...i think...

[(Anonymous)]

It's at least comforting to see that there's some consensus about seeing things from this side. I agree that the attitude in the room *has* gotten out of hand, especially in terms of behavior towards newbies. The room has always been a bit harsh towards new people, partially to filter out the glut of morons, but never in such an overtly malicious and aggressive way. And trying to reason with the general attitude in the room is pretty much futile - I at least tried to be civil and honest about my feelings on the room, and you can see what that got me. I realize that I took part in some of the flaming originally, and that I could easily be looked upon as a hypocrite, but when I saw it becoming completely unreasonable I decided I wanted no part of it.

I don't mean to be intrusive on the whole matter, but this is what I told a few other people in the same situation: Your best bet is probably to keep in touch with the people you're closest to in there, who are reasonable enough not to be combative and defensive about your opinion about the room, and stop going for at least a little while. I've managed to preserve several of my good friendships from chat, and although I discovered that a few people I considered close reacted belligerently to my leaving I consider it a good thing that I've left. You might, unfortunately, discover that some people quickly change their attitude toward you, but it's probably better that you find it out sooner rather than later.

I apologize for posting another lengthy diatribe on the subject on your livejournal, but I just figured I'd let you know that more than a few people agree with you on the subject and that you do have support in your opinion. If you want to respond, email me at ubik@purdue.edu... if you don't want to, no problem.

Adios, and I hope to hear from you sometime. :)

-Ubik

Hey Ubik

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I think I agree with all that you said and how you said it. That's pretty much how I planned on handling it. I've talked to those I still wish to talk to, but the old urge to go into chat whenever I can, is gone. There's an overall assholish attitude present in there now. I've talked to a few people in private who do actually agree, but they've been dealing with this so long and have much more important things to deal with that it takes a backseat. I don't blame them.

I think I just had to rant and rave to get it all out of my system. I just hope that no one's being two-faced towards me. And I too was suprised at a couple people's reactions towards you.

I will try and email you, but I've been REALLY bad about it lately.

Here is my board if you need to get a hold of me.
http://www.voy.com/33605/