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[blustocking]

I was so creative, so open when I was younger...16/17/18. I feel like a wilted, dying flower closing in on itself. Does this happen to everyone? Do you notice your creativity fading? Is it the influx of life-sucking responsibility? I feel like I've lost so much, time, talent, skill, drive, creativity, inspiration...I was fearless once. I had dreams once. I had so much faith.

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[iamwells.livejournal.com]

That happens often.

Think of the times that you were most creative, then recreate similar circumstances. How late could you staty out back then? What bars could you go to, if any? Did you see your friends as often?

Things are generally lousy for you right now, but I think that creativity is one thing that you can have if you choose to take it. Mattuh-o-fakt, your limiting circumstances may even bolster it.

I was a little throw by your listing of "talent" and "skill." Do you really think you've lost so much of it, or is it just that you haven't had a recent opportunity to prove that it's still there?

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[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Well, I didn't have to worry about rent or bills, I had a set schedule and plenty of free time so...I guess the responsibilites of adult life take more than I thought. I just need more effing time. A few more months of this b.s.

I guess I put talent and skill in there because not only do I not have the time to see if I still have it, but I don't have the time to perfect it or use it.