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gamera is really neat, gamera is filled with meat...

Actually, I feel fufty-million times better because I said a giant "fuuuuuuck yeeeeew" to the Celtic Arts Center. They're never open, my contact person is a little...off, and after I finished cleaning the seats, they didn't know what they were going to do with me so...bye bye! The only bad thing, is that I lost 6.5 of the 10 hours I have done because I had to hand in my virtually unsigned work record to get another assignment. Not much in the grand scheme of things, but still. But now, now I will be working at Out of The Closet (the thrift store) in NoHo. Sweet-ass. They're open every day but Sunday and I've decided for the last week of September, the month of October, and the first week of November, I'm going to tell Brentano's I can't work Friday and Saturday, thus giving me time to do 16 hours of community service a week. I just might be able to pull this off. And that makes me feel SO much better. I'll still work at Brentano's during the week, closing shifts after I work at DHD. It will sucketh, but what can you do. Nathing, that's what.

Tomorrow is the Department Night Out and we're going here. I wasn't going to be able to go, as I work at Brentano's, but Chun is kind enough to come pick me up. :D I think I'm most excited about the Kahlua flan. Ha, the most alcohol I've had in..what....3 months as of the 12th? I donna lika tha seafood, so it's cow or chicken for me. If you will recall, I don't eat things that look like they looked when they were alive. If steak had hair and eyes, I wouldn't eat it either...but then again, who would?

I've made a decision today. A pretty solid decision, so I don't expect much change.
Here's the plan, Stan:
I'm moving home. I was riding the bus from (fucking) Van Nuys to Culver City today and it moves along ye olde UCLA path. I was looking at the school and thinking...I don't want to go there. Then I laughed in my head as I said it, "HA! I don't want to go to fucking UCLA! What the eff am I doing here?!" I couldn't really answer myself other than I wanted to get the hell out of Kansas at the time and I would miss the friends I've made. But....I need to finish school. I'm going to be 25 in less than a month and I'm STILL in college, barely. This doesn't really bother me that much, but as more time passes, I see the image of my finishing school move further away. That, and I feel stupid. I feel really fucking dumb lately. I'm not challenged and I feel stagnant. The reading more is helping, but I was looking at the pictures of my artwork I took when I was home (because they're too big to transport out there, I left them at home) and though I'm very critical of them, at least I was creating. So yes, the plan....the plan is to finish this DUI shite, probably go home for Christmas (start looking at Lawrence apartment prices then), do another semester at Valley (writing workshop and possibly one other course...probably ancient history because I love it so), then move home next Spring/Summer. I'm not happy about going back to Kansas for the summer (damn humidity) but at least it will be tornado season *evil grin*. Year of residency (blah) then buckle down, finish school, perhaps go back for a refresher at bartending school and make money with that during the evenings.. I need to focus. Too many distractions. I've said it before, but I really need to get out of debt and focus on what is good for me. It was stupid of me to put personal ads online. Too many responses and I don't have the time. Thank jeebus someone has lured me away from that. I found a much more worthy, helpful distraction. ;) Moving home would also mean two hours closer. heheh.

So, I'm truly sorry to all of my L.A. friends. Feel free to come with me...Lawrence really is a cool town, and think of it, actual seasons! Now I need to work on getting over my "demotion". Whatever, I'm cooler than those schmucks because I did get out. I did experience life outside of the small town bullshit. And when my niece graduates, maybe I'll take her to NYC and I'll(we'll) just stay (heh, I got her wanting to move there as well). I just need to be home for a while...for me, for my family. I finally feel like it's the best decision. It may alter a bit...but I think this one is sticking.

There is now $120 in my savings account (I have no idea how much is in the 401k...a couple thousand?). There has NEVER been more than $80 in my savings because I've always had to take it out to pay bills. Of course, I still owe the court near $400 and the Safety Education Center (purveyors of such fine evenings such as group and my video education classes (Last night we watched The Days of Wine And Roses)) still gets another $125 out of me, but I might be okay *knock on wood*. Now I just need to start saving for the move, pay off more bills. Maybe I won't quit Brentano's at Christmas. Heh, maybe I will and just get another part-time job. They'll probably fire me before then due to my low PR scores as of late. Whatever, that company wasn't always so...well, corporate. I should write up the little review sheet they gave me. You'd all get a good laugh. I'm a damn good worker, excel in every other area, but I refuse to shove that card down customer's throats. They tell us we're not booksellers, we're salespeople, but you know what...fuck that noise.

I've lost more weight, so I think I'll go buy some new pants [said in annoying nasally voice] for my lunch break (as today is free food day here in Pornoland). Boo ya

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It seems like something you've thought out. And it doesn't sound like a bad idea. But we should partay a little before you go.

You get a cookie for reading all of that. :)
And yes, much partying will be had!

I can't remember if I told you or not, but I got a plane ticket to KC for Christmas, so maybe we can meet up one day in Lawrence? I'll be there Friday/20th to Thursday/26th.

Also, don't feel like it's a demotion. It takes a lot more strength to move back than it does to stay there. At least that's what I've told myself - the easy way out is to not change, the hard way is to admit that maybe things aren't working and you need to try something different. I wish you the best of luck (and celebrate at the idea that you will be so much closer!)

P.S. I miss Free Porn Monday's.

good plan. except you fucking suck because why don't you just transfer your shit to cal state long beach, move down here, get a nice cheap ass apartment, use the california residency you already have, and finish school sooner? plus, keep the wonderful weather and the numerous amounts of restaurants kansas don't have.

although you could wait until i don't get into med school and apply to kansas state for my MS in physiology. then we can rough that shit together.

Goddamn I love you...those first few sentences rocked.
This "wonderful weather" can suck my arse. I miss storms and I miss fall. I miss KU's campus.
I miss the Fine Arts building and the fact that they won't make me take math OR science if I'm a Fine Arts major. Take THAT California.
Heheh, dood...you DON'T want to go to K-State...that town blows aaaasssssssss. You'd have a hard time dragging me anywhere near Manhattan, Kansas. It's worse than Topuka(Topeka).

As

firedragon said, we must partay

cal state long beach is known for it's fine arts and it's english programs, and it is the largest univeristy in california. and they just did a whole bunch of construction to the fine arts building. whenever you have time, even in the middle of the night, i will take you there for a tour. i ahve been there for most of my life in various forms.

there is nothing wrong with science or math, and for fuck sake, you should be required to take them. they have both for non-science majors and it's not so bad. if i can pass their general math and then get A's in calculus, you have a very good chance of doing fine.

I will take you up on that offer. I need to see more of the LB, yo.

No, there isn't...but when you haven't taken it since high school and would have to take 4 or 5 Math (actually, I think I've completed the science...I don't mind science) classes to get your Fine Arts degree, it tends to piss you off.
I got A's and B's in it in high school, but I ended up dropping Trig/pre-Calc because...well, I could.

no! one math class. it's called mathematical ideas, and it completes your requirements.

zis is not what zee counselor told me. :\

really? go to www.csulb.edu and look at the 2002-2003 catalog. it's a pdf.

oh...I thought you meant for California in general. I wonder why it's different for CSULB?
*shakes fist at UCLA*

csulb is a practical school. it's great for undergrads. one of the best schools in california. ucla is for snobs and grad students.

also, don't believe everything they tell you. they told me i had to take pre-algebra because i did shitty on the math placement exam. i took the class i told you about, it satisfied my requirements, and then i took calculus. you have to schmooze with the counselors and the porfessors, and it should be no problem. i've gotten my way into many classes i didn't have the pre-reqs for. anything can be done.

but....I wanna go to KU. :(

i know. i guess i am being a bit selfish because i want you to stay here because i like you. you need to go whereever will make you happy.

can i visit?

Can you visit? YOU BETTA VISIT!

We have a while before I go and I'm sure I will visit here often as well. :D

Like I said, you never know what will happen in the next few months...I could end up staying. It's just, I've not felt this concrete about the decision thus far.

J, I totally thought of you today in my creative writing class. This girl put too many "anywayS" in her story. Well, in the midst of my eye twitching, I corrected her promptly in your honor.

See, I can be taught. :)

NIIIIIIIIIICE! :D

Oy, I miss joo.

sheeeeeeeet who needs seasons. I dunno...when i was in NYC in the last two years, once being bitterfucking cold with snow and most recently being stanky ass hot hot hot...i mean humid butter between your cheeks hot..the subways were unbearable and i said "give me CA or give me death". Fuck this humidity shit.

i love fall, but willing to miss if for the rest of the year.

i used to go to that Out of The Closet all the time...when i lived in Burrrrrrrbank.

My rule is, if it swam i don't eat it.

This Out O' Tha Closet be ghettofied and on Laurel Cyn and Victory though.

I'm not willing to give up Autumn that easily. Nooooo way. Must have real Autumn (and Spring as well....mmmm, thunderstorms...)

But now, now I will be working at Out of The Closet (the thrift store) in NoHo.

>>"Are you open yet?"

"No, ho!"

:)

I think I'm most excited about the Kahlua flan.

>>Oh, that reminds me. I need to see a doctor. "Hmmm...it seems you have Kahlua in your flan."
"Now how did that get there?!"

I feel really fucking dumb lately.

>>One thing you're not is dumb, so *pbbt*.

They'll probably fire me before then due to my low PR scores as of late.

>>What's a PR score?

I've lost more weight, so I think I'll go buy some new pants [said in annoying nasally voice] for my lunch break (as today is free food day here in Pornoland).

>>You're buying pants? Is the world coming to an end?

We should hang out at least once before you go back to the wheat fields. I'm even more annoying in person. Boowahaha!

does indeed sound like a well thought out decision.
And don't think of it as a demotion. Things that are best for oneself should most importantly be promotions, me thinks.
And how can you *not* miss KU's campus? I mean, seriously, it's fuckin' gorgeous.. the seasons, the college football games.. the coffeehouses and cafes on Mass. St... damn.. makes me want to go there instead of Savannah.. *growls*
choosing a college shouldn't be this hard.. cheap, nice college in kansas.. versus kick ass somewhat expensive arts college in georgia..
must do some extensive research *nods*

woo! for lawrence.. mmyup. good decision.

Rock Chalk Jayhawk! ;)

That is a tough decision that you have to make though. Savannah is pretty though, isn't it?

Savannah is indeed very pretty.. but it doesn't seem like it has much of a nightlife... I could be very wrong, and probably am..
but then again.. I guess Lawrence doesn't have much of one... *shrugs*
I don't think KU has photography.. I'd go there for other stuffs..
I'll apply.. doesn't hurt to apply..

Lawrence is okay in the nightlife department. But if you pick a school with too many distractions, you may regret that as well. ;)
KU doesn't have photography?! What the bitch?

photography is a negative.. (wow, that's a bad pun) I checked the KU site this afternoon. Closest they've got is Printmaking, which in all reality isn't the same at all..
well poop.. there goes KU..

Heheh. Printmaking is fun though! ;)
As long as Mike's still teaching it anyway. :D

Are you hoping to just major in Photography, or are you choosing a minor as well?

I'm hoping to major in Photography and maybe minor drawing or even communications. For a while I wanted to double major in photography and in furniture design.. I'm not sure though.. it means tons of work.. but would be fun ^_^

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