oddly optimistic

[blustocking]

I've walked to the library. Ian's at work. Actually, he's probably home by now.

I have no job, no money coming in, and a car that needs some serious repair work...and it's pretty fucking cold. All that b.s. about liking cold more than heat, well....I'm a thin-blooded pansy it would seem. It's hard to fight just staying in a warm bed, as opposed to getting up and moving about, being productive. But productive I am trying to be. So here I sit, getting ready to check the online want ads again. I've already looked a a few writing contest deadlines and I'm trying to work on some short stories inbetween research for the book. Basically, all I've been doing is watching movies, reading, working out a bit, going out occasionally, working at the bookstore very occasionally, and playing video games with Ian (Paperboy mostly, but he got me to play Balder's Gate with him a few times. I like my big sword.) He needs boy friends, and not gay ones. I try though.

Got a fondue pot for X-mas, a gift certificate to a comic book store (which I used to buy some Arsenic Lullaby, and a few other things. I didn't get very much, and I'm glad, because I don't have the money to reciprocate. Because I'm a selfish prick who moved at Christmastime when you're supposed to be doling out the cash to buy things for those you love. That's not your anger, that's mine. But I'm making a few presents, and that makes me feel better. I just wish I had the money to get some nice digital photos printed. :/ So even when I try and by-pass the commercialism of this holiday, the Money Thing rears up in one way or another.

I'm not really that angry. I was a few days ago though.

We spent Cheesemas with Jason (friend, and our roomie) and his families. One side on Christmas Eve and the other on Christmas Day. They're very nice and it was actually really pleasant. They fed us and even gave The Ian and I presents. :}

I just finished Steve Martin's new book. It was even better than Shopgirl. I'm in the process of reading other books which I could impress you with, but I'm too anal and too lazy to type them out, underlined and appropriate.

I should start my job search now.
I miss many of you. I think I miss California. I'm not sure.

I think I need to "suffer", the age-old, tired excuse of being an "artist".

Comments

[xylocaine.livejournal.com]

i miss you... and i miss lawrence.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I'm guessing I'll probably go home at LEAST for my niece's graduation (in May). Will you be in Lawrence then, or do you know?

I miss joo too. :}

[xylocaine.livejournal.com]

i should be there... i might stay in lawrence and take some summer classes...

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Sweeeeeeet.

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

I'm gonna be in Kansas City in May!!! Maybe our paths will cross? When is her graduation? I'll be there over Labor Day weekend.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Her graduation is on the 16th I think. When is zee Day of Labor?

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

End of the month - May 31st I think. I'll be in Los Angeles on the 16th - Steve's wedding (did I tell you he is getting married) is on the 15th. :( I'd have loved to see you!!!! Stay there for two weeks (until the end of the month) and then we can see one another! I know you want to spend that long in Kans-ass! haha

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I read that about him getting married. That's crazy! It's the same girl he's been seeing for how long now?

I'll just have to come out to Denver, man. :( Not :( about going to Denver, but :( about not seeing you sooner. :( :(

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Isn't it though!?! He's only been seeing her since June!!!! To their credit though, they've basically been in love with one another for five years now. We all met at Brentano's but they could never get their timing right. She was dating someone, he was dating someone, she was still in college and joined a sorority, he was an old, bald man...you know how it goes. So finally, this past summer, time was on their side and they dated, fell in love and are now getting married.

It's kinda hard though - even though I'd never date or marry him, he's MINE and now I have to share him with another girl. *pouts* And I'm not entirely convinced she's matured yet. She just turned 23! He's turning 35! But, I have never seen him so happy in all the time I've known him, and that's what's important to me. :)

And yes, you MUST come to Denver. SOOOON! It won't cost you anything once you're here - you'll stay at my place and I can pay for food and fun. As long as it's cheap food and fun. haha So come visit me dammit! :)

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

I loved "The Pleasure of My Company"!!!! I enjoyed "Shopgirl" but there was something about TPOMC that appealed to my neurotic, psychology-educated, agoraphobic, love-starved side(s). I was cheering for him. Excited with the outcome but sad at times during his journey to the end.

What else are you reading? I read "Vernon God Little" by DBC Pierre and it was amazing. One of the best books I read all year, if not in the last five years.

And, as always, I MISS YOU!!!!!!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I miss you! I'm sorry I haven't called. Truth be told, I hate long conversations on cell phones, so it makes me put off calling people even more. :/ I plan on getting a land line as soon as I get a job. I will try and call soon though.

I'm reading The Black Tulip by Dumas and A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers....as well as a few other death-related tomes, for book research. :)

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

I'm not big talking for long periods of time on cell phones either, but since it's my only phone, I don't have much of a choice. :/ Steve and I seem to do okay, but I have another friend who only uses cell phones and I have the hardest time talking to her. I think it's a matter of getting the rhythm down right so you don't talk over each other because then you can't hear what's being said. Anyway, no worries, I'll try calling you this weekend, otherwise sometime in the future when you have a landline.

Also, in reply to your recent post, I did get your card. I LOVED IT!!! So much so I even mentioned it in my most recent post...as the best card I got!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

YAAAY!

I had an interview today, so if I get a job, I'll be getting a REAL phone and I will call you. I'll call you soon on the cell too. :D

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Good luck! I hope you get it! (the job, not the phone line, although I hope you get that too.) hehe

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Thanks babehcakes!

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

A good death-related tome is "An Invisible Sign of My Own" by Aimee Bender. I just read it for the second time and absolutely love it. I have an extra copy that I'll try to send to you....

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Ooo, I'm at the library now! I'll try and look for it. Thank you! :)

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Let me know if you don't find it and I'll send you my copy. Also, if you do read it, let me know what you think. I tried to get my sister to read it but it was "too depressing". She prefers chick-lit fluff like "Confessions of a Shopaholic" or "Good In Bed".

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I'm reading it now! Half-done. It's goooood. Thank you!!!

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Good! I'm so glad you like it! I must spread the joy that is Aimee Bender to everyone! muahaha

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I'm following the Chicago Mobster Manual of Style (CMMS). I have to kneecap 'em. Song titles sleep with the fishes and anything underlined gets a moose head in their bed.

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

Man Arsenic Lullaby. Good choice.

[nic.livejournal.com]

Shit yeah, Arsenic Lullaby is fantastic. I loaned every single book I have of it out and kinda need to buy it all over again now :)

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

The numbering on that book is weird. Was it always the same publisher? Self published right? I need to reorganize my collection to see which I'm missing.

[nic.livejournal.com]

I lost the plot around the same time the artist did. I tried to talk to a local comic shop about getting them all in one solid single purchase but they seemed as confused as I am. The A.L. website seems to not have an awful lot. He has moved on to another comic now which poaches some of the characters from A.L.

I'm thinking Comic Con next year I'll find him and beat some sense into the man. He really did the highlight read of the year for me, I enjoy his humour a lot.

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

Rawr. I never get to go to comic con. Maybe this year... maybe.

[nic.livejournal.com]

I went a couple of years ago, and missed last year. I really really want to go this year, but I have no idea what my finances will be like. Hopefully, I'll make it. It was such a good time last time around that it'll be a shame if I don't.

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

If I can get out of debt I'm going to do a lot of traveling.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's my plan too. It may be awhile.
:(

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

Death to debt.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Not to mention dangerous...as we will be forced to stalk you. MWAHAHA!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Damn straight, here ya go, kid...

*flings zombie fetus in your direction*

[cinzazul.livejournal.com]

Wooh!

BITCH.

[locopuff.livejournal.com]

MOVE BACK HERE. I MISS YOU.

Don't make me get all AOL on your ass.

BRING IT, SNATCHASAURUS!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Ya know, I'm tempted.

Horrible fucking traffic or horrible fucking cold....damn, I don't know. ;)