oddly optimistic

[blustocking]

I've walked to the library. Ian's at work. Actually, he's probably home by now.

I have no job, no money coming in, and a car that needs some serious repair work...and it's pretty fucking cold. All that b.s. about liking cold more than heat, well....I'm a thin-blooded pansy it would seem. It's hard to fight just staying in a warm bed, as opposed to getting up and moving about, being productive. But productive I am trying to be. So here I sit, getting ready to check the online want ads again. I've already looked a a few writing contest deadlines and I'm trying to work on some short stories inbetween research for the book. Basically, all I've been doing is watching movies, reading, working out a bit, going out occasionally, working at the bookstore very occasionally, and playing video games with Ian (Paperboy mostly, but he got me to play Balder's Gate with him a few times. I like my big sword.) He needs boy friends, and not gay ones. I try though.

Got a fondue pot for X-mas, a gift certificate to a comic book store (which I used to buy some Arsenic Lullaby, and a few other things. I didn't get very much, and I'm glad, because I don't have the money to reciprocate. Because I'm a selfish prick who moved at Christmastime when you're supposed to be doling out the cash to buy things for those you love. That's not your anger, that's mine. But I'm making a few presents, and that makes me feel better. I just wish I had the money to get some nice digital photos printed. :/ So even when I try and by-pass the commercialism of this holiday, the Money Thing rears up in one way or another.

I'm not really that angry. I was a few days ago though.

We spent Cheesemas with Jason (friend, and our roomie) and his families. One side on Christmas Eve and the other on Christmas Day. They're very nice and it was actually really pleasant. They fed us and even gave The Ian and I presents. :}

I just finished Steve Martin's new book. It was even better than Shopgirl. I'm in the process of reading other books which I could impress you with, but I'm too anal and too lazy to type them out, underlined and appropriate.

I should start my job search now.
I miss many of you. I think I miss California. I'm not sure.

I think I need to "suffer", the age-old, tired excuse of being an "artist".

Comments

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

I loved "The Pleasure of My Company"!!!! I enjoyed "Shopgirl" but there was something about TPOMC that appealed to my neurotic, psychology-educated, agoraphobic, love-starved side(s). I was cheering for him. Excited with the outcome but sad at times during his journey to the end.

What else are you reading? I read "Vernon God Little" by DBC Pierre and it was amazing. One of the best books I read all year, if not in the last five years.

And, as always, I MISS YOU!!!!!!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I miss you! I'm sorry I haven't called. Truth be told, I hate long conversations on cell phones, so it makes me put off calling people even more. :/ I plan on getting a land line as soon as I get a job. I will try and call soon though.

I'm reading The Black Tulip by Dumas and A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers....as well as a few other death-related tomes, for book research. :)

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

I'm not big talking for long periods of time on cell phones either, but since it's my only phone, I don't have much of a choice. :/ Steve and I seem to do okay, but I have another friend who only uses cell phones and I have the hardest time talking to her. I think it's a matter of getting the rhythm down right so you don't talk over each other because then you can't hear what's being said. Anyway, no worries, I'll try calling you this weekend, otherwise sometime in the future when you have a landline.

Also, in reply to your recent post, I did get your card. I LOVED IT!!! So much so I even mentioned it in my most recent post...as the best card I got!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

YAAAY!

I had an interview today, so if I get a job, I'll be getting a REAL phone and I will call you. I'll call you soon on the cell too. :D

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Good luck! I hope you get it! (the job, not the phone line, although I hope you get that too.) hehe

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Thanks babehcakes!

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

A good death-related tome is "An Invisible Sign of My Own" by Aimee Bender. I just read it for the second time and absolutely love it. I have an extra copy that I'll try to send to you....

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Ooo, I'm at the library now! I'll try and look for it. Thank you! :)

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Let me know if you don't find it and I'll send you my copy. Also, if you do read it, let me know what you think. I tried to get my sister to read it but it was "too depressing". She prefers chick-lit fluff like "Confessions of a Shopaholic" or "Good In Bed".

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I'm reading it now! Half-done. It's goooood. Thank you!!!

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Good! I'm so glad you like it! I must spread the joy that is Aimee Bender to everyone! muahaha