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[blustocking]

I wish Livejournal could be more fucked up. That would be neat.

I wish I wasn't such a schmuck. That would be nifty.

Never have I felt like a bigger mooch than I do right now. I don't know what it is, but I can't seem to pull it together. I hate it. IhateitIhateitIhateit. I can't stand things not being fair and I'm almost positive that I owe Sara money.

To top it off, I was supposed to buy tickets for Wednesday's showing of "Amèlie" at the Egyptian (the one with the discussion with Jean-Pierre Jeunet) for myself and 2 other people, both of which already gave me money...which I had to spend, thinking I was getting money from selling the computer to Brendan on Saturday. What with the problems of transferring my files from old box to new box, I haven't given the computer to Brendan, hence...no money. I just hate not following through on something that I said I would. I guess I am responsible after all, or was...or desperately want to be again. I can't keep doing this. I feel off, not only because of money troubles...just off.

I need to get that 2nd job. I don't care if school starts soon. I can't keep doing this every month.

Fuck. I just remembered I owe petty cash $50. Great.

Computer SHOULD be done tonight. I SHOULD be able to give it to Brendan tomorrow morning. I SHOULD have money then for paying back people, a new tire, tickets for 3 people, and my $100 deductible. Fucking hell. That money is all but gone.

Plus, Emily is in town. I want to go out with her tonight. I'm going to have to use the $21 I have to do this. This town, I swear.

And I haven't followed up on my Greenpeace stuff AT ALL.

I also waited too damn long to get the service learning stuff together. Now I won't get credit for it. Not that it's necessary, just would have been nice.

I have to apply for financial aid, see a counselor, and fucking ENROLL...which I should have done long ago.

Seems as though 2002 has fooled us all.
I blame the palindrome.

Comments

money stinks

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Especially when we don't have any. Because then it often forces us into positions of being, as they say, beholden. Borrowing and owing, etc. Some people don't mind, and in fact even seem to think that the world owes them something; these people can often be described as full-fledged mooches. Others do mind, feel guilty, and when they are forced to borrow, they try to pay it back as soon as possible. The truth is, most of us are going to be put in a position where we borrow money or can't pay back money owed right away, or somethnig of the sort, at some point in our lives -- usually when young. It's just the way it goes. This is something with which I have struggled mightily, and just had to accept. I can't always be prepared for whatever curves life's finances may throw me.... you just have to roll with it, pay back your dues as soon as you can, and rely on karma. Remember how horrible you felt, someday, when your kid or your niece or nephew or *someone* needs money, or can't pay you back, or whatever. It all works out in the end :)

Iffen I had gobs of money I'd.... well I'd fix it dammit!

:)