My head hurts so bad, vision blurry.

[blustocking]

Make it stop.

I feel sick. Heart hurts.

I should just stay away for awhile. Stop posting before everyone de-friends me.

I think Kat had the right idea...but it's so hard to keep it inside.

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[kitryne.livejournal.com]

who's defriended you? i'll smack em for you.

screw keeping it inside. post, post, and post some more. i will point you to what vodka said, eh?

i LOVE you, blu.

Thank you SleepyC.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Seriously, you have no idea how much I needed that...just from one person. And I'm very glad it was you. You're one of the last people I'd want to lose as a friend.

My views seem to be separating me from my friends...more likely, it's my stupid way of putting them out there.

I'm sorry about posting so much with that guy in your journal.

A couple people de-friended me, but I'm not sure who.
Meh. Whatever.

Re: Thank you SleepyC.

[kitryne.livejournal.com]

don't pay em no mind, mz blu.
i'll stick to you until the end, it's true. unless you fuck my wife.

i'm funny, no?

*HUUUUUUUUUGS*

Hey

[qat.livejournal.com]

I love you.

De-friend you? Nope. Ain't gonna happen. Cuz--

I love you.

The last thing that should come out of this whole situation is people turning against each other. That's already what's going on; no more is needed I love and value you as my friend. The more time I've gotten to spend with you in "real" life, the luckier I feel. Your ideas are different frim mine. Mine are different from yours. And you are a deeply caring, wonderful, intelligent person whose differnt ideas I enjoy connecting with.

Sweetie, I just felt attacked by what you had said -- whether I should have or not. Please don't shut up. Please don't keep your ideas inside. One of the things I love about you most, and always have, is your honesty -- your willingness to stand up for what you believe in. Please don't stop.

I just want us all to listen to each other.

And I want us to be friends.

Please don't be mad at me :(

I love you and value everything you've shared. I just felt attacked. I'm sorry if I've offended you......

I won't take you off my friends list unless you take me off yours, by the way.

Because I consider you to be my friend.

I can be very over-dramatic.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I just felt like shit.

No one, save maybe rueyeet, feels how I feel and it was very isolating. Like Sunder, I was sick of people pointing out our flaws and that anger spawned my first post. I felt stupid, attacked (by Avo a little) and belittled. But not by you dear Kat. Possibly not by anyone in particular, but a sum of the parts.

I am not mad at you at all. You did nothing wrong. And you had every right to feel the way you did. I re-read what I posted through your eyes and I see where I went wrong.

I'm just a little shocked and dissappointed in myself. I'm usually pretty open-minded and like to see things from all sides. I guess fierce pride and strong emotions often override consideration.

Sometimes I just feel like so many of us take this country and our freedom for granted. NOT YOU, this is not you...I'm just talking...stupid train of thought shit...mostly spurned by what Avo's posts.

Before I ramble any longer....
I am so very relieved that you don't dislike me. You are one of the MOST wonderful people I have met and I would be so, so sad to lose your friendship.

I love you too.
:}

Woo! The lunatic responds!

[locopuff.livejournal.com]

Heyas, bebbe.

Noone dislikes you. We all want you to feel better.

Avocado is a goddamned moron who talks in circles and can't defend his point of view. Good god, he can't even articulate his fucking point of view. So don't mind him. He's like a seagull, intermittently flying in and trying to shit all over everything.

Shoooweee...

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for that. Really. I was beginning to think that I was in the company of few on my opinion of him.

And I'm really glad you don't hate me. I was beginning to think that you might be annoyed with me lately...I don't know why...I don't. I'm a paranoid freak...that's why. ;}

Oh, I'm sure SOMEONE dislikes me...I'm just glad all the right people don't.

I love you Loco de Coco.

Goth Stripes!

[locopuff.livejournal.com]

I'll share my forthcoming antidepressants with you. We shall feel removed together!

Nooooo.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

NO! No no no no no! I am NOT mad at you, especially not mad as hell at you.

I don't hate people for expressing their opinions, but I don't want to assume that everyone is like that. There's no way I could hate any of you for holding different opinions.

This horrific act, it's brought us all together, ripped open our hearts, torn us apart, but ultimately brought us back together, stronger than ever I hope.

I really truly respect, admire, and love you all...especially right now.

I love you too Voddy-odka.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

You are amazing.

Man, after reading all of these responses, it occurred to me that this might look like a cry for attention. It is not. I hope you all know that. Someone accused me of that once in our little community and it makes me think that sometimes I might appear that way...that's not what this is...nor have I intentionally tried to get attention by creating drama or acting hurt.

I love you all, really I do.
I wish I could hug each and every one of you.