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[blustocking]

"If she could just get down to using only her brain stem, she'd be cured.
This would be somewhere beyond happiness and sadness.
You don't see fish agonized by wild mood swings.
Sponges never have a bad day."

--from Choke by Chuck Palahniuk

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[motherevol.livejournal.com]

Oh, man, did you hit the nail on the head. No matter what I say, I am to blame or somebody else in her field of vision is.

On top of that though, she suffers from extreme mood swings, ranging between episodes of acute euphoria (mania) and severe depression. Aka: bipolar/maniac disorder. If she isn't verbally attacking somebody in this condo, she's depressed and having random crying jags.

Gah! It is horrible to see somebody's mind give up on them, but its even worse to actually be knee deep in their shit too. If misery loves company then I would prefer to be by myself.

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[emu72.livejournal.com]

to see somebody's mind give up on them

Do you mean she wasn't always like this?

[motherevol.livejournal.com]

I think a lot of her illness was hidden/masked by being married to a verbally abusive alcoholic (my daddy). She would have "episodes", but they were predominately directed toward his irresponsibilities and his own addiction. At the time, it seemed justafiable. I was too young to recognize the difference. She was like this even when he wasn't home/around/after the divorce/yadda yadda.

In retrospect I can see traces of her mental meltdown, but being away from her for over 8 years, it seems like a sudden switch in personality/emotions. It has always been this way, but I didn't know how to read the signs when I was a teenager in the '80s. Thank the gods for getting educated. ;)