p.e.e. e.s.s.

[blustocking]

I'm really too tired to fucking care. I should always be too tired to fucking care. But, truth is, like Faith No More, I do "care a lot". I wish I didn't. Apathy is so much easier. But I'm just not wired that way. I'm wired for optimum caring performance and it often pisses me off and makes me want to kill. HAHA. I kid. It just makes me sad. But for now, I'm too tired to care and that's good enough for the first good night's sleep I'll be having since 2 days ago. Mmm, restless nights and 6:30 am alarms. Could be worse.
It could ALWAYS, be worse.

And no...it's not even what you think it's about...maybe.
Probably a few things.

Some little waitress-chicken flirted with me as I was having breakfast, alone, the other day. That was nice. Being home is such an ego-stoke sometimes. Which is good, because no matter what Mr. Self Esteem says, it's nice to have the occasional outside validation. Especially when you're feeling like dog doo.

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I'll flirt with ya, baby!

[locopuff.livejournal.com]

Ya, I'll shove ICE DOWN YER PANTS! YAARRRR!!

I'll teach your grandmother to suck eggs!!

I don't think you're happy enough!

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

IFFIN YOU AIN'T THE GRANDADDY OF ALL LIARS!

Did you get your mother-effing package yet?!!!!
HMMMMMMM?

Shit, I miss you.

random thoughts.

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

Why is self-esteem always a mister? I think it's because boys are the bastards of the underworld. Actually, probably just because we rely to heavily on them for validation. Maybe we're the stupid ones.

I thought of you this week (yes, only once, that's all you get - haha). We had a BLIZZARD filled with feet upon feet of snow. We got nearly five feet of snow and were house-bound for four days before finally getting a small path from our house to civilization. The entire city shut down - you even got ticketed if you were on the streets for no good reason! All that snow made me think of what beautiful pictures you could've taken. You would've enjoyed it.

I love it when Cosette sneezes. It's just so cute.

How's the job search going? I'm tempted to boycott this wedding in May although I know I'll probably chicken out. The bride's pissed me off and I'm not really sure I feel like going. You would be the only bright spot of that weekend (I could just stop by the wedding and reception for a brief moment and spend the rest of the weekend having fun with you), but if you aren't there yet, then what fun would a weekend with you be without you? No fun at all. :(

I think I'm delirious so pay no attention to me....

Re: random thoughts.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

naaaaw, I just made it a "Mr." because it sounds better. I'm doing much better on the internal validation front. Still, I think we need to make t-shirts with your little slogan on them. ;) There are certain truths that need to be shared.

How is your snow situation now?

Re: random thoughts.

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

There actually is a shirt out there that says "Boys are Stupid. Throw Rocks at Them." That's where we got the saying. Although if you want to think we're original, go right ahead. :) I think my friend got it at Hot Topic or Torrid (Hot Topic for fat chicks).

We've had several days of sun and melting snow (although there's still tons on the ground) but then today we are getting a little snow - supposedly around 6inches (remember when 6 inches was a lot - like, two weeks ago? haha) It's so weird though, the sun is shining, but it's snowing! I don't think I've ever seen that before.

Re: random thoughts.

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Sun AND snow? You are living in Crazyland.
Yes, I DO remember when 6 inches was a lot. D'oh!
;)

...wait, no I don't.