stays up late, does nothing

[blustocking]

And now, for the mundane....
I think I'm getting sick, but I keep drinking the bourbon anyway. I can't pay my rent, at least not until next week. Don't want to go to school, feel surrounded by people who are jazzed about making art and I want a fucking normal life, a normal wife. Just for a little while, to get me back in the Mooooood.

Went to the studio tonight, at around 10pm. Just to get my body used to traveling in that direction, hoping it will stick. I did nothing. I stared. I ran my hand over the scarred skin of My Big Demon and wondered what the hell is wrong with me. I sat. I started thinking too much, realized I'd stopped moving and that was my problem. So I left. Came home. Made something small to eat, since I'd barely eaten today. Made a drink, watched some TV and tried my best not to think.

Comments

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

I oughta slap you for saying Post Modern on my blog. We don't allow that kinda talk here.

I like Sans Soleil much better. I think my having seen 12 Monkeys ruined La Jetée since all I was trying to do was compare. I want a book of the text to Sans Soleil though...but I only see there's the text online.

[i-muad-dib.livejournal.com]

ha!
I understand. I want to slap most people that even bring it up.

http://www.markertext.com/sans_soleil.htm

print it out in A5 and do some simple Japanese binding. I have been doing that a lot lately.

http://www.sff.net/people/Brook.West/bind/bindit.html

[blustocking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I thought about that....
I've just been making some blank books, only with glue-binding.

That's a handy website.