Look ma! I'm published!

[blustocking]

I miss my journal. This isn't honesty. This isn't purging. If I stay true to my nature and post what I feel by being vague, then people will read into it. Perhaps I should preface every entry with "If you think this is about you, it isn't."...even if it is.
This place is just a giant orgy of ego-stroking and reassurance, and I am no exception.
We are messy little creatures.

I should post really hateful, true to the bone things and see who drops me.

I just had a 5 minute conversation with someone who was worried about being dropped from our Danni mailing list when he switches ISP's. Shoot me now.

Comments

[photicdriver.livejournal.com]

i have been feeling the same lately also. and i just started with this shit, although i had open diary before. too much showing off.
be true in your journal, and i know i for one will still read it. unless you say to fuck off, and then i'll just go cower in a corner. ;)

[ericjevitts.livejournal.com]

my journal is fluff.

I'm here for the communities. I never really have much to say in my own journal.

[nic.livejournal.com]

I'm about to put my homepage on my CV...which means I need to clean up my journal entries and put them into private if they would offend any decent employers i have... could be interesting :)

Funny you should mention that.

[qat.livejournal.com]

How true that is, at least from my perspective right about now. LiveJournal may be useful and fun for some still, as it was once for me, but I find it is not so much for me anymore. Beyond being something often personified by weird ego-stroking and reassurance, as you said, I think it's a spy community, voyeurism of the worst kind. I don't know why it didn't strike me before - willed ignorance, wishful thinking, I guess - but I never felt the need to make my entries private in the past. Then I found out that because of the fully 100% ignorant and pathetic delusions, sneakiness, and general idiocy of some, I kinda had to. I wish people I don't give a crap about would just leave me alone as I leave them alone. My life is none of their business just as theirs is none of mine, but then again - if you make a journal public and online, what do you expect? People are stupid and can't help themselves, and if they can find grist for their sorry little mill of delusions - even if it means reading into something when they have NO FUCKING CLUE about who or what is being talked about, or the situation at all - they will. I find that the whole LJ thing just sort of bugs me now. It's like some weird, twisted popularity contest, or play being put on for viewers, with ego-stroking "look at my life on display, I'm going to talk about people I'm pissed at or still in love with or whatever blah-blah, without actually mentioning specific names or places, because then people might not like me, and then people might actually know how I really feel" stuff that I can't even explain. It bugs me. Lately, at least. Anyhow, I just wanted to say that I agree with you, and also that if you are pissed at me and want to let loose and say "Kat, you know what, you really suck" you can feel free :) I prefer to know about such things firsthand, it's just a lot simpler that way. Drop me an email or post it loud and clear :)

I heart you.

[locopuff.livejournal.com]

If I was all the way honest about everything I was feeling in my journal some shit would go down.

[vivycakes.livejournal.com]

i like my LJ for entertainment :D 'cause i end up writing most of it when i'm bored at work and we've run out of paperwork to do for the moment. anyone who walks by my desk can read it, so it's not like i want to write stuff in it that is such a huge deal. "serious" entries do no good when i want levity to get me through a long shift. they're boring as hell.

i don't think people need to explain themselves in their livejournals. they don't owe their audience anything, so why not just write what they want? if it gets too annoying you can always disable the comments feature! it gets sticky when you want to say something about someone else, and then it's a matter of knowing what the consequences might be. i haven't had a problem with that but obviously it's gotten ugly in some other LJs that i've read.

i'm paranoid. even if my LJ is friends-only i still think anyone could read it. i wouldn't write shit there that hasn't been already dealt with or said to someone's face. what wierds me out sometimes is when people have LJ fights and they have the ignorance to wonder why they can't work their problems out.

If you move that hyphen, it would say "moody ass-shit"

[haddob.livejournal.com]

Fuck em. There are too many one-way streets. Fuck em all.

My thoughts on the subject...

[catnamedcosette.livejournal.com]

This is why I'm not too concerned about the number of "friends" I have. It allows me to write whatever I want and not worry about offending anyone (but you, which I don't think I would do anyway since I don't have anything bad to say about you).

I like LJ because I type much faster than I write and because it's online, I can access it anywhere. Also, it allows me to keep in touch with YOU(!) in a way that's different from e-mail. This allows me to share feelings and emotions and such, stuff you might not always e-mail your friends about. But, I can see where people who have hundreds of "friends" how it can become much more than just a way to keep in touch with someone or to let them know what's going on in your life or even just a release that's personal for you. If you had to worry each time you wrote something that you might offend one of the fifty people who read your journal, you probably wouldn't have anything to say. (This is the generic you by the way, not YOU-you. Make sense? :) )

I'm actually contemplating at the moment whether to send my LJ link to Steve, Amanda, etc. so they can keep in touch with me easier or at least to see how I am on a day-to-day basis, if they wanted. But, I wonder if I want more people reading it. I kind of like knowing that no one really sees it.